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By Anonymous   
Wednesday, 19 August 2009

To Whom It May Concern:


I am a forty-three-year-old attorney from the Midwest, a typical American who grew up poor and worked my way up. When I was in college, “Women’s Liberation,” now revitalized under “Freedom of Choice” and other names, was popular. I took classes in sociology like “Sex and Gender Roles.” When I became a young professional, I worked with local government and saw in the health department that the current view on “health” included encouraging contraceptives, masturbation, and abortion. I stayed quiet because I did not want to lose my job or close off a future in government work. I grew up in the Catholic Church, but had begun to regard its ideas on such matters as out of touch.

In law school, I got involved with a young man. We did not marry. I became pregnant. And ill. He did not want responsibility. I agreed to have an abortion. I cried. I rationalized. I had the abortion. Pain has plagued my heart and soul ever since. I have confessed and been absolved of my sin. The God of Mercy forgives a repentant sinner. But absolution does not stop your being haunted. Every time I see a child my heart aches. I am now a stepmother, but my love for my children does not displace the longing for my aborted child.

No rationalization can comfort me or anyone else who has had an abortion. My only comfort is that my Lord and Savior, in whom I trust, cares for me in my misery – and for my child until we can be united in heaven.

Modern “liberated” thought is making women and men callous about life. Oddly, “women’s liberation” has ended up supporting a self-centered, bull-male culture. Modern “humanistic thought” sees human relations not as human at all or as a reflection of God and His gifts, but as a “natural” occurrence no more spiritual than mating of any wild beast or the shifting of tectonic plates. All these movements promote the opposite of their claimed goal.

Women are not liberated by abortion, but enslaved in a culture of death and sorrow, or they rationalize themselves out of everything good that is the essence of being a woman. “Freedom of Choice” does not apply to the one most in need of freedom. The one innocent party, the child, is locked in a mother’s womb where there is no advocate for its life.

In C.S. Lewis’ The Screwtape Letters, the Devil says that he uses jargon to replace God’s truth to confuse and corrupt people. Lewis was right on the money with modern society.

The ludicrous language games present a thin mask of the reality of the situation. Courts and politicians say abortion is the termination of a fetus or embryo, not the death of a child. But when a couple that wants a child becomes pregnant there is much celebration of modern medicine and happiness in anticipation. No one calls it an embryo or a fetus; immediately it is the much longed-for child. It is absurd to think that these two contradicting ideas exist in our society.

In many cases courts protect the unborn child, if it is wanted. There are cases of men being charged and found guilty of murder for killing an unborn in an attack on a pregnant woman. In estate law, an unborn wealthy child may have his potential assets assigned a guardian until his/her birth, in cases of battles over money.

When a couple that wants a child gets pregnant there is joy. When that couple loses the child due to miscarriage, there is mourning, and a sense of loss is recognized and understood. When an unwanted child dies via abortion there is a political rally to encourage “choice.” How can a well-educated modern society support this choice of death? The real choice comes at the point of the two consenting adults choosing to have sex, not at the point of death of the child.

Our modern culture of death is no more enlightened or free than the ancient cultures that performed blood sacrifice. The “god” for which we commit the sacrifice is money or freedom from responsibility. The one true God is Jesus Christ. He is truth. Our modern culture of death cries at the death of a monkey in experimentation for life-saving drugs, but chooses to mutilate the aborted fetus, without consent, for science is horrifying and false in its supposed humanism.

It’s often said that embryonic stem cell research is important to those who are ill and those who block it don’t understand suffering. I and many like me who suffer from chronic physical ailments would prefer to live with pain or even die rather than kill another to enhance my life.

Killing a child does not set anyone free. Freedom of choice is a misnomer that misleads people to think good about a terrible evil, much like the Nazi rhetoric that led a nation to attempt the extermination of Jews, Poles, mentally handicapped and other marginalized groups.

I am a modern professional woman who has more than thirty years of education and experience. I have committed a great evil. I allowed myself to be lead down the path of falsehood. I recognize it.

I suffer for it, I pray for forgiveness and I hope for the truth to be heard. Mothers and fathers of unborn children: stop and think and pray; God will help you along a righteous path. Decision-makers at every level: life is short and some day you will have to account for your actions. Think Freedom of Children.

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written by Willie, August 20, 2009
Wow! This is one of the best- a real confrontation with reality!
written by Marcus, August 20, 2009
"The real choice comes at the point of the two consenting adults choosing to have sex..." - exactly! But what about in cases of rape, where there are not two consenting adults? Well, as unfortunate and terrible a thing as rape is, that child did not choose to be conceived that way. The child is innocent and abortion is only piling another crime on top of the rape.
Thank You
written by Michael Francis James Lee, August 20, 2009
Thank you.
You are in my prayers.
written by Chuck, August 20, 2009
Marcus, rape or consensual sex makes no difference once the person is begotten. To compound the crime of rape by killing the child and hurting the woman... is not the way. A greater evil cannot fix the consequences of an evil action.
written by Achilles, August 20, 2009
Wow!, very moving. Thank you!
The Cost of Feminisim
written by A Reader, August 20, 2009
Yesterday by coincidence I re-read an article from the january l997 issue of Commentary magazine - "A Farewell to Feminism" by Elizabeth Powers. Today's blog posting echoes this fine, heartbreaking analysis of radical feminism (regarding sexual matters, marriage, and motherhood) by offering a personal history of its effects.
Absolutely Awesome Read
written by Michael, August 20, 2009
I feel for you, and the struggle you had with your decision, and the emotional consequences that have followed. It is heartbreaking to say the least. I've argued the Right to Life, more times than I care to remember. I don't know that I've ever "won", but I keep trying. I pray for you, and for all mothers who have lost a child in any manner.

This was an eloquent, beautiful, rational message that needs to be seen and read by as many people as possible.
I truly feel your pain
written by Gayle, August 20, 2009
I am a woman of 67 years who wanted a child all her life and couldn't have one. Thus, from another standpoint, I cannot understand the "choice" to murder an unborn child. And yet, your lifelong mourning and guilt continues since you now recognize that that death was a foolish choice, I do understand your pain. May God bless you have confessed and been forgiven. Cling to that, dear child!
Witness to Life
written by debby, August 20, 2009
my dear sister,
you are a great witness to life, a witness to hope, a witness to the mercy of God our Father. thank you for your vulnerability & honesty. every single one of us is guilty before Holy God of trusting in something or someone else over Him. we are all sinners in need of the Savior. With St. Paul we can each proclaim that we are the "chief of sinners." Yet He redeems, restores.
God continue to bless you as you speak the truth in Love to our culture.
God\'s merciful love
written by Vicki Thorn, August 20, 2009
For 25 years the Church has ministered to women wounded by abortion through Project Rachel. The author speaks of the pain that remains. Healing abortion is like open heart surgery. God restores your mother's heart but there is a scar and it will ache. It is a little known fact that women carry cells from every child they ever conceive the rest of our lives. It is called Microchimerism. God's gift to women who have abortions is that they are still physically connected through these cells.
To Marcus
written by Pio, August 20, 2009
Marcus, this is correct church teaching. But you also illustrate why we must choose our words carefully and deliberately on the abortion issue, and not just yell "murderer" at every opportunity. Even for many devout Catholics, doubt starts to creep in about the church's abortion teaching if you ask about someone's wife, daughter, mother or sister becoming pregnant through rape. It's easy for me to say that I accept the teaching re rape, but I pray fervently that I am never tested.
written by Bill Daugherty, August 20, 2009
Your testimony and good works are effective to make reparation but you cannot "earn" God's forgiveness. It is your free gift in Jesus Christ. Don't leave Him standing there holding it out to you. Receive it with thanksgiving and humility (yes, because His mercy is greater even than your sin) and be healed. I will pray for you.
Thank you
written by Megan, August 20, 2009
Thank you for having the courage to write and share this piece. You represent the story of many women - a story that too frequently goes untold in this country. Thank you for openly discussing the reality of abortion - not only its aftermath, but also the falsehoods that persuaded you to choose abortion in your time of crisis. You will be in my prayers, and again, thank you for your strong example of redeemed femininity and for sharing your story of Christian mercy and love.
Re: Rape??
written by Carolyn, August 20, 2009
In supplement to Chuck's comment:

"A greater evil cannot fix the consequences of an evil action." EXACTLY!!! I've found many people who are against abortion EXCEPT in the event of Rape. What Chuck says is one of the best responses these persons need to hear. My mother has always taught me to ask such a person who believes abortion necessary in the case of rape: "So then, you believe that the child must pay the price for an action performed by someone else?"
Divine Mercy Now
written by Norma Ann Rodriguez, August 20, 2009
Love is mercy's second name. God loves you. God bless.
written by Brendan, August 20, 2009
Thank you for sharing this. I will keep you in my prayers.

God Bless,

written by marcus, August 21, 2009
Chuck, Pio, and Carolyn, thank you for saying better what I had trouble expressing. I did not phrase my message well, I was not asking the question about rape for myself, but for others who may use rape as an excuse for abortion. I know it is a common "argument" so I was merely posing it for those who may not understand why an abortion is still not excusable even in the instance of a rape. I think you said it best, Chuck: "A greater evil cannot fix the consequences of an evil action."
Guardian Angel
written by mefeiner, August 21, 2009
Hvae Faith in your Guardian Angel..You Are STILL SPIRITUAL!!
Only you can take that away from Yourself,be Strong,GOD forgives,as we all understand.
Healing is Ongoing
written by Rev. Mark Reilly, August 21, 2009
I deeply respect Vicki Thorn's work and experience with Project Rachel, and encourage you and all mothers (and fathers) of aborted children to avail themselves of this gift in the Church. Also, if you haven't already done so, I couldn't encourage you strongly enough to make a Rachel's Vineyard retreat. They're online - google it and check it out. A deeply moving and effective healing experience for all who've suffered the tragic wounds of abortion.
written by Gabriel Austin, August 21, 2009
One of the most difficult aspects of the Church to accept is forgiveness. Having confessed, having been forgiven, is one of the great blessings of God bestowed through His Church.

One may indeed feel sorrow, one may feel pain after such an act as aborting a child. But it is necessary for our salvation to set a limit on that sorrow. It risks turning upon itself; it risks souring the soul. God has forgiven you. The child is in the bosom of Abraham. Now get on with your remaining life.
written by Graham Combs, August 22, 2009
Anonymous reminds us that the CULTURE OF DEATH is also THE CULTURE OF FEAR. In law school to confront the one was to be assaulted by the other. Anonymous chose the wiser path. She and her unborn child suffered the consequences. I chose another path and suffered mine. Yes, Confession (or the Act of Reconciliation) is always there. Thank our Gracious Lord. But the moment for courage is often only there once.
written by gb, August 22, 2009
This woman has written the story of my life. This is exactly what happened to me. DITTO all she says. Is anybody in this culture of death listening??
written by Liz Kayne, August 23, 2009
“women’s liberation” has ended up supporting a self-centered, bull-male culture. Women's liberation has also created a self-centered Amazon culture in that women are fed the idea that they are "super" humans capable of making it alone: single parenthood has become the norm. Women have been told you don't need men or male bashing is ok - they fail to see we "compliment" each other. Good article. You are in my prayers.
The Pain Endures
written by Rationalizing Man, August 24, 2009
As a man who made his college girlfriend pregnant and rationalized her preference to have an abortion (her second) rather than doing more to persuade her otherwise, I can testify to the truth of these words: "Pain has plagued my heart and soul ever since... The God of Mercy forgives a repentant sinner. But absolution does not stop your being haunted. Every time I see a child my heart aches. I am now a [father], but my love for my [daughter] does not displace the longing for my aborted child."
written by Kathleen, August 25, 2009
May God Bless you and hold you in the palm of His Hand in your suffering. Please continue to tell your story and spread Truth. You never know who may hear it and whose life you may change.

You will see your child in heaven!
Praise God!!
written by norma ann, August 25, 2009
JMJt save souls.

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